Battling Fibro Fatigue

Today I am tired.

Today my body (and mind) are screaming at me to stay in bed and rest, but I have things to do. I am in the middle of an assessment period where I am multiple essays to write in a short period of time. I could stay in bed and work, I have the means to do so, but I also have packages to listen out for, a house that needs sorting and dishes to be washed.

This is the constant juggling act between listening to what my body wants me to do and trying to have some sort of normal life.

Living with fibro has been a constant battle that I have yet to find a compromise for, instead I just feel like I am constantly failing.

My statement of results at university is like a roadmap of times I was sicker and times my kids were sick. It’s a frustration of knowing that I have so much more potential but being completely unable to fulfil it due to circumstance.

My house is also a roadmap of the times I am sicker. Dishes piled up, bins to take out, general chores that come much lower down than taking care of myself and taking care of my kids needs. The latter always being my first priority.

Today I am tired, and I am losing the battle once again.

Butlins – a single parent review

Earlier this year an advert for Butlins at Christmas caught my eye. It had a cheap price, a low deposit and manageable payment scheme! So I decided to go for it 🙂

We’ve never really been on any holidays, except camping back when I was with the girls father, and certainly never since it’s been just the three of us. So this adventure would be a first, but it would also give us the much needed family time together that we seem to lack in our busy lives. Now in the last year of university it can be hard to switch off and actually spend quality time together, so getting away would be really good for us all.

Several months later and its finally xmas! And time for our family holiday, except one thing…..I have kept it a big surprise from the girls! They literally had no idea we were even going away, let alone where!

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Setting off! They still have no idea where we are going!

 

There were a lot of firsts and worries with this adventure, not only had I never taken the girls away, let alone by myself, I had also never driven so far! Only having passed my test 3 years ago, I had only once driven on a motorway and for only one turn off at that!

However I braved it and the journey was no where near as bad as I thought! Even with the unplanned stop in the middle for toilets and lunch, the wrong turn off and back road diversions, and arriving later than planned, we made it in one piece and checked into our home for the week.

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My bed was actually really comfortable, and even had its own tv in my room!

 

We had a Gold standard apartment for the week and went self catering as I just couldn’t afford the dining plans but actually it was really lovely. The apartment was a good size, well equipped and clean. We had a toaster, dishwasher and microwave to boot! Two of which I don’t even have at home lol!

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View from apartment window – lovely and quiet

 

Another plus was being so close to the main area, if we go again I will certainly be trying to book in the same area!

After settling in we decided to venture out for an explore. The whole place was decorated beautifully and the kids both loved all the lights!

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On our way to the skyline pavilion, so many pretty lights everywhere!

 

There was lots and lots to do, many free activities were included with the package such as tickets to the pantomime and every child gets to see Santa! (including a present as well!) You could book on to free activities such as arts and crafts, where the girls got to create lovely decorations to take home with them. There was also optional activities which incurred a small charge but I thought were definitely worth it, such as pottery painting, which the girls loved!

 

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Arts and Crafts activity included in the package

 

Every day and night there was something on, whether it be activities or shows, and they were plenty of places to visit including soft play which the girls loved.

As I mentioned before included with our package was tickets to the Christmas pantomime, which I was worried about coping with as a single parent. What if we loose are seats? What do I do when one needs the toilet? Will I ever be able to get drinks? As it turned out the whole experience was actually not too bad. We managed to get a nice little table for the three of us on the second level, which whilst not the most amazing close up view, we could still see and it wasn’t quite as crowded. It was also near the bar area which allowed me to pop up and get drinks/snacks whilst still being able to see the littlies at the table. Bonus.

Everyday there was also a Skyline “snowstorm” which involved a short little show, followed by the skyline being filled with confetti “snow”. Pretty cool I must say and again the kids loved it! Very pretty as well 🙂

 

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Skyline Snowstorm

 

The shows all went down really well with the girls, but especially the ones with the Skyline Gang! (whom I keep calling the Skyland gang for some reason oops!) So much so that they came away with a toy Rainbow (the dog mascot) and their very own skyline gang costumes! Another bonus was when we turned up for an included activity, it turned out to be run by the gang! Cue very happy girls indeed. Just wish I’d known beforehand to bring a coffee and book to chill for an hour!

 

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Christmas sing a long show with the Skyline Gang

 

To keep costs down we went self catering and I packed the car with a weeks worth of shopping, only buying butter and cheese on the resort (which were actually a decent price). If you do want to eat out, as we did for a treat, I highly recommend the Diner. Not only was it good prices, but the portions were huge and tasty as well! A meal for myself which left me stuffed, with a drink, plus two kids meals, which included both drink and dessert cost less than £25! I was happy with that.

Overall the experience was amazing, and I am so glad that I grabbed the opportunity to do it, even though it meant doing it all on my own. It is certainly manageable as a single parent, although I will say it does get very pricey as all the merchandise you will want to buy and there is also an arcade right in the centre of the skyline which you will no doubt want to play! (we did….a lot.)

 

 

Book Tour Extract: Forsaken Genesis by M.J. Marinescu

Forsaken Genesis

Summary:

The world has changed in more ways than one. Most humans live in the safety of the hive cities, massive industrial complexes walled off to the outside world. Yet, the dangers of the wilds are no longer limited to the outskirts. Rumours abound of strange things in the night. Sightings of subhumans and citizens being abducted, whisked off by men in vans or worse. The Department of Control keeps a close eye on the citizens of Avalon but who are they protecting?

Melissa thought the world outside the facility would be safe. Free from the pain and the incessant tests of the men in white coats but what she finds is a world unknown. Fleeting memories call to her like a siren song pleading for her to remember. Can she figure out her strange dreams and the shadowed figure who hounds her in her sleep? She must discover who she is and come to terms with the truth that may have been kept from her for good reason if she hopes to survive in this strange new world.

Information about the book
Title: Forsaken Genesis
Author: M J Marinescu
Release Date: 25 th September 2018
Genre: Cyberpunk Fantasy
Publisher:

Goodreads Link: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/42391287-on-a-white-horse
Amazon Link: https://www.amazon.co.uk/Forsaken-Genesis-Deluge-Prophecies-Book-ebook/dp/B07HNFB389

 

 

BOOK EXTRACT

 

Johnathan surveyed the scene of the crime, the flashing lights of the Department of
Control perimeter drones warning the public to remain at a distance. Another
disappearance in a string of similar incidents over the past few months. The difference
this time was that he arrived before whoever was covering them up.
“How did you find this one so fast Faye?” Johnathan asked.
“I knew the person involved. There’s something else you need to know, but I wanted to
tell you in person,” she replied, a look of concern on her face as she regarded him.
Johnathan scratched his unkempt beard, the stress of the recent mysterious cases
beginning to show on him. “Well?”
Faye motioned for him to follow her as she stepped through the laser perimeter. The
drones scanned both detectives as they crossed, running their images through the
department’s databases. The building was lit only by the shouldermounted flashlights as
they headed down the hallways.
Avalon was the first of the industrial hives of humanity, a pinnacle of the modern age,
but despite the prestigious title, the city was not immune to squalour and crime. This
building, like countless others, was one of the many places untouched by the reach of the
city’s everincreasing supervision.
Faye stopped outside what remained of a door. Another of the drones kept watch,
reporting everything back to the department where it would be catalogued and filed.
“John, look at me. We’ve been partners for a long time. We’ll figure this out, okay, I
promise.”
Johnathan looked at Faye, gazing at her into the room. The air hung with the burned
solder and copper, but also pine, which seemed out of place. Pushing his way past Faye,
he stepped into the apartment. Torn furniture littered the simple room, but most of the
area was filled with cybernetic scraps, paint cans, and other hastily abandoned
equipment. “Junkers? What does this have to do with our case?”
“Not only junkers, John, they were trying to control the Awakening. Now they’re gone,”
she spoke, barely above a whisper.
A chill washed over him as his mind toyed with the possibility. “How is that possible?
Wait. You said you knew the person involved? Faye?”
She motioned with her eyes for him to follow as she placed a finger to her lips.
Continuing through the room, Faye stepped out onto the landing through the broken
window. The city’s neon lights and loudspeaker announcements rang out over the heavy
rain and the constant patter of water on metal. A set of rusted fire escape stairs snaked
down the side of the building.
Johnathan looked back into the room before following his partner down the precarious
stairs. When they reached the bottom, he asked again, “Where are we going?”

“I don’t want the drones to hear, okay?”
He raised his hands in mock surrender. “Okay.”
“I promised her I wouldn’t say anything, but after tonight I have to. It’s Jane.”
The name hit him like a truck. “My Jane? What about her?”
“Look, I investigated this fellow a couple of weeks ago. He was working out of the room
upstairs. When I came in, I saw Jane. She was with him.”
“What the hell does that mean? It couldn’t have been Jane. She said she was going to
visit her mother in France.”
“I’m telling you, John, it’s the truth. She only told you that she was leaving town for a
while because she’s afraid. She told me that she was showing signs of Awakening. She
was desperate and trying to find anything that could help, so she turned to the junkers.”
“Son of a…” he trailed off, tapping on his communicator. “Call Jane,” he commanded as
the device complied.
“John, stop. I made her tell me where she was staying, but that isn’t the only problem
now.”
“Why wouldn’t she tell me?” He pressed the communicator again, disconnecting the call
as the voicemail message played. “All right, I’m listening.”
“It wasn’t the Order of the Shield who got here first. It was the Grove.”
“Like the Grove? I thought they were a myth?”
“Well, if my contact is to be believed they’re real. I don’t have any reason to doubt him,
and now shortly after he contacted me, he’s gone dark,” Faye said flatly.
“Okay, so the Grove is real if we believe your guy, and he was working on helping the
Awakened. The Grove must also be after them, like the Order. The disappearances, the
coverups, they must have all been Awakened. This means the government is working
with the Order, and if they’re in on it, the department must be too.”
Faye quirked an eyebrow. “Now you see why I didn’t want the drones to hear.”
“This is insane. We sound like conspiracy nuts. I’ve been with the department for
twentyfive years. Nothing like this has ever come up.”
“Well, this whole Awakened business is very different from normal problems.”
“True. So, where’s Jane? If she’s mixed up in this, I need to get to her first.”

Faye pulled out a crumpled piece of paper and handed it to him. “Be careful, John. If the
department is part of this, you can’t use any of their gear. Don’t even take your car
there.”
“Good idea. Thanks, Faye. You can handle the rest of the work here?”
She nodded, then strolled off towards the front of the building leaving him alone in the
alleyway. Johnathan read the address on the paper, turned off his communicator and ran
off.
 
~~ * ~~
 
Jane opened her eyes groggily as the bright, white light of the room assaulted her. She
tried to move but soon realised she was restrained on a table. Panic set in as she
struggled against the bonds trying to remember how she got here. She was sitting in one
of Overdrive’s socalled safe houses. He had set her up temporarily while he worked out
the last few things he needed for his cure. A loud crash from the next room woke her
up. What would John do? she thought, looking around the room, trying to find any clues.
The room was large and filled with state of the art equipment, better than any she had at
the hospital. Some of them she did not recognise but could hazard a guess as to their
purpose. Aside from the equipment, the room itself was dull. She glanced around for
insight into the area. Thick windows surrounded her. One window revealed a hallway
with doctors, or she assumed they were doctors by their attire, walking this way and
that, each accompanying a young girl. Patients of some sort, they all wore the same drab
robe, ranged in age from five to their late teens, and all walked with the same sleepy
demeanour.
From the second window, she could see two men conversing. One man was some sort of
chairman if she had to guess. His perfectly tailored suit, slickedback hair, and sunglasses
commanded authority and a sense of selfimportance. The second man, another doctor.
Judging by their body language, they were speaking about her.
The third set of windows revealed a room similar to the one she found herself in. The
same bed, machines, and a girl in her late teens who struggled against her bonds. Her
wild mane of dark hair flailing as she did. Unlike the other girls Jane had seen, this girl
seemed scared, either the drugs they used to keep the children docile had worn off or
were otherwise ineffective. She watched the girl struggle violently while the doctor in the
room ignored her antics as he busied himself with something Jane could not make out. It
reminded her of a video she had seen as a child. A rabbit restrained, struggling so
frantically until it broke its own neck trying to escape whatever tests the doctor had
planned.
Her thoughts were cut short as the door to her room opened. She stared as the man in
the suit strode off down the hall. The doctor he had been speaking with approached her

with a predatory smile, like a child who had been given permission to keep the cricket he
captured.
“Sorry to keep you, Mrs. Edwards.”
“How do you know my name? Where am I? What’s going on here?”
“We know a great deal about you, and soon I hope to know more. Please give me a
moment while I prepare the serum.”
Jane could hear him moving things behind her but could not see. What little hope she
had remaining that this may be an actual hospital died as the stark realisation hit her.
Panic once again set in as she struggled against her restraints. The girl in the other room
looked at her before the doctor pressed a switch causing the windows to tint.
She felt a sharp pain in her neck from the doctor injecting her, causing the room to spin
and his words to fade as she tried to make sense of them. She lay helplessly as he picked
up instruments to run his assessment of her. The way he went about his business with
casual disregard shocked her, and she wondered how many other people he had done
this to. At that moment, she realised the last thing she had told her husband had been a
lie and that she was never going to have the chance to tell him the truth.

 

 

Author Information

MJ

MJ Marinescu has always dreamed of being a novelist. Writing stories from a young age, the author has never faltered from that dream as well as devoting time to fitness and martial arts. Born in Ottawa Ontario, the author now lives in Calgary Alberta and enjoys art, animals, and nature. You can keep up with MJ on Twitter @MJMarinescu or at the official website www.mjmarinescu.com

Website: www.mjmarinescu.com
Twitter: www.twitter.com/MJMarinescu

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/MJMarinescubooks/

 

 

 

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Book Review – Jackson Saves an Owl by Darren Garwood

Jackson Saves an Owl

 

Summary:

Jackson Superhero might not be a real name, but it is a story about a real boy, and as the name
suggests, Jackson is far from ordinary. By day, a rare disease limits his ability to move freely, but at
night he is far from grounded. When the sleeping hours come around, and weightlessness takes
over, Jackson takes to the skies. He knows what it means to need the support of others, which is
why when he hears a call for help, he is quickly there to lend a hand.

 

REVIEW

This beautiful book is about a boy who escapes the confines of his daytime life in his dreams; where he becomes a superhero rushing to aid of his friends! 

The book follows the adventure in rhyme which is both easy to read and entertaining for the children. Both my 5yr old and 8yr old loved the story and the littlest was particularity taken with the Owl character! 

There is a short blurb in the back of the book about the protagonists inspiration, and whilst the true nature of the reasons behind the nighttime escapades does not really come across in the story, the thought behind the theme is beautiful and one that can be shared easily across many age groups.

Overall this was a lovely book, which both my children enjoyed and we would certainly be interested in seeing more in the series.

 


Information about the book
Title: Jackson Saves an Owl
Author: Darren Garwood
Illustrator: Carl Osborne
Release Date: 1 st September 2018
Genre: Picture Book
Publisher: Untold Books

Goodreads Link: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/42141736-jackson-saves-an-owl
Amazon Link: https://www.amazon.co.uk/Jackson-Saves-Owl-Superhero/dp/8799506262/


Author Information

Darren Garwood is the father of Jackson, a real boy living with a rare and terminal illness
called Krabbe disease. Darren came up with the Jackson Superhero series because as
Jackson can’t move during the day, Darren wanted to help him dream at night, when he was
free to be anything he wanted to be. Jackson Saves an owl is written in lively, fantastic
rhyme, and is the first in the Jackson Superhero series.

Twitter: https://twitter.com/jacksons_smile
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/jacksongarwoodsmile

 

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Book Review – Monstacademy, The Halloween Parade by Matt Beighton

The Halloween Parade
by Matt Beighton

 

The Halloween Parade

Summary: It’s not every day that a vampire borrows your pencil. When was the last time yousat next to a werewolf in maths?
Meet Trixie Grimble, the newest pupil at Monstacademy. Unfortunately, in a school filled
with monsters, she’s the only ordinary girl and when she’s asked to help prepare for the
annual Halloween parade, everything starts to go wrong.
Oh, and she’s also been kicked out of her bedroom to make room for a cat circus.
Fans of Jill Murphy and Isla Fisher will adore the silly humour and loveable characters in this delightful modern classic.

 

REVIEW

So my eldest is a real book worm, she spends hours a day reading away, enjoying a variety of different books from fairies to Minecraft, science to learning about rocks and stones, she often her nose in a book. That said, at the ripe old age of 8 years she has also become a literary connoisseur, or at least she knows what she likes and defiantly isn’t afraid to tell you when she doesn’t!! So off Monstacademy went to see if it would pass the brutal scrutiny of my chief child literature tester. 

She read it through in one evening and there was complete joy and laughter that could be heard through the ceiling to my office below. She loved the story; the pictures were enough to keep her interest but not too frequent for her age and she absolutely adored the extra’s at the back of the book. Let’s just say it was a big hit!

From my perspective the story was great, chapters the right length for the age target, illustrations lovely and I find the added short story and activities at the back of the book, an amazing touch. It’s small touches and thoughts like that which make an author stand out in the vast minefield of children’s literature. 

We will certainly be on the lookout for more of Matt’s books in the future x

 

**Disclaimer: Whilst I received no payment for this review, I did receive a copy of Monstacademy for the purpose of reviewing. All views are my own (and the eldest’s!).

Don’t forget, all of the Monstacademy series are available in both standard and dyslexia adapted format. To celebrate Dyslexia Awareness Week 2018, use the code DYSAWARE to get 15% of any Monstacademy orders at the Green Monkey Press Etsy store. Offer valid from Monday 1st October to Sunday 7th October 2018 at https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/GreenMonkeyPress 

 

 

Information about the book
Title: The Halloween Parade (Monstacademy #1)

Author: Matt Beighton
Release Date: 12 th September 2018.

Genre: MG

Publisher: Green Monkey Press

Goodreads Link: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/36988699-the-halloween-parade
Amazon Link:  https://www.amazon.co.uk/Halloween-Parade-Monstacademy-Matt-Beighton/

 

Author Information

Matt Beighton was born somewhere in the midlands in England        Matt Beighton
during the heady days of the 1980s and continues to spend most of his days in the same shire. He is happily married with two young daughters who keep him very busy and suffer through the endless early drafts of his stories.
When he’s not writing, he teaches primary school (Kindergarten to some of you), messes around on canals in his inflatable kayak and supports his beloved Leicester City.

Website: http://mattbeighton.co.uk/

Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/mattbeightonauthor
Twttier: http://www.twitter.com/mattbeighton

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCs9DBOkwtDpnTFBYZXUhUUw

 

 

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New Term Chaos

It’s the start of a new school year and that means of course that chaos has reigned this week!

Not helped by the fact that the week began with my cousin’s funeral over 200miles away, so a long day trip and emotional reunions with family ensued.

It’s hard that the only time you see a lot of family is at these sad times, we all live so far apart and have our own busy lives. Yes social media allows us to stay in “contact”, but it’s not the same is it? It was really nice to see people even if the circumstance wasn’t the best, and plans have been made for next year for a little adventure with one of my closest cousins, so that is something to look forward to at least!

Back from that emotional day and the next saw the kids back at school for a new year! They grow up all too quickly and time just seems to be flying by at the moment. However there was no time to stop and pause as I had my 3 hour UKCAT exam at 9am!

Despite the circumstances I did manage a score above average which I should be happy with, but I messed up the last section so I really don’t know how things will be effected now, only time will tell I guess :/

The rest of the week was filled with working at uni, housework and working as a healthcare assistant at the weekend (gaining experience for my applications!). So very much tired all around. I am fighting the pain and fatigue at the moment and I really don’t know if I can keep this up much longer but hopefully the pace will be more chilled this week.

It’s hard to get everything done that needs to be whilst trying to maintain this constant balancing act between my life and my health. Well more of a battle between what I want to do and what my body will allow me to do!

Just keep swimming.

The Ups and the Downs

It’s been a rough week or so.

We found out last week that my cousin who had been battling cancer for a number of years had passed away. No matter how much you think you are prepared for something you know is going to come one day, you aren’t.

It has been a couple of years since I last saw her in person and whilst we all stay in touch over social media and such like, it just isn’t the same. Some times it’s hard having a family spread across the country, and time flies past far too quickly being caught up in the day to day struggles of our own lives.

 

The following day was pride. Something I have wanted to take part in for years and was really, really looking forward to. It felt weird to be so colourful and cheery considering and the weather certainly wasn’t on our side. But despite getting drenched and tired, the experience was a great one and I can’t wait to take part again next year.

 

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Plymouth Pride 2018

 

Mid week the girls had their first salon experience. Which was lovely. I took them to my hair stylist for a long overdue cut and they had a great time! It’s really nice that they are getting to the age where we can do things like this together. Quality time and fun, taking the edge off the hardness of single parenthood!

 

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Hairdressing Fun Times

 

The week ended with a high though, a day out to Paignton for their Children’s Week activities, although to be honest I didn’t think that much of what was on offer that day. However we ended up going for their first ever trip to the circus! Im a massive circus fan and hoped they would be too, and needless to say they loved it. The looks on their faces in awe of the acrobatics and gymnastics, the laughter at the “clowns” and such like, it truly was a wonderful experience and one I hope to repeat every year 🙂

 

I’ve found the last week or so draining. The spoons are certainly low at the moment and the pain high. My head is still flying around all over the place and it’s a constant struggle every day.

Living with chronic pain and fatigue is a constant battle and when bad news hits or the weeks are long (summer holidays) it really takes its toll. It’s easy to forget when you look at me and see what appears to me a normal life on the outside how much I am carrying around. It’s been a lot of ups and downs and I can certainly feel it at the moment. Lets hope that the next isn’t quite so bad eh 😉

Chaos of the Mind

I live surrounded by chaos.

Chaos of clutter, chaos of the mind, chaos that comes with being a parent.

My mind is constantly running a hundred miles an hour. Thoughts and fears and plans and worries. Trying to remember everything I need to do. Trying to plan for every circumstance. Trying not to overthink every small detail of what has happened and what could happen.

My life feels so up and down, surrounded by so many pitfalls and walls I have to overcome. Constant chaos that wears me down.

I want to streamline. My life, my home, my mind. Try and create some calm amongst the storm inside. It’s hard. I try every day and the pain and the fatigue wear me down as well and its like I’m just treading water. Never really getting anywhere.

I have so much to do and so very few spoons to achieve it.

Book Spotlight: I’m a dragon You See

 

I'm A Dragon You See

 

Have you ever wondered what a Dragon likes to do for fun? Or what he might look like?
Even what he likes to eat. Is it ice cream or pasta?

Then ‘I am a Dragon you see’ will reveal
all these mysteries and more. Go on an adventure with a fun repeating rhyme and colourful
illustrations.

A fun way of learning about the importance of friendship and kindness.

 

 


Title: I’m A Dragon You See
Author: David Kirkman
Release Date: 19 th June 2018
Genre: Picture Book
Publisher: Clink Street Publishing

Goodreads Link: https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/40664288-i-m-a-dragon-you-see
Amazon Link: https://www.amazon.co.uk/Dragon-You-See-David-Kirkman/dp/191256257X


 

Part of the #ImADragonYouSee book tour, hosted by @authoright

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Yearly reflection

Just over a year ago (a year and 2 days to be precise!) I wrote a reflection on the previous year and everything it had brought about. So it seems only fitting now, a year on from that, to reflect once again on the year gone by.

The last month or so has been challenging, having changed to alternative assessments in my degree I was faced with around 11 essays to write in 13days. With a few of those days taken up looking after my children and my nephews birthday, it meant I was working on an essay or more a day, not easy and certainly not relaxing! But as always my body decided to throw an extra spanner in the works with me getting ill days before starting this epic task. JOY!

However it is now all over and with that marks the end of the second year (all being well!) of my degree.

It’s been an interesting year, I learnt to let go a lot. Leaving acting behind to focus on my studies, leaving old toxic friendships behind to focus on me and my family, and leaving behind some responsibilities I no longer needed to carry, so I have time to breath. I am finally starting to get to places I want to be in my life, focusing more on my health and rebuilding that, so I at least stand a decent chance in surviving a career and having more family fun. Building a home for me and my girls.

I have spent a lot of the last year trying to decide on what next. There are a few options, each with their advantages and each with their varying degrees of obstacles. Every single one though revolves around medicine in some way or another. It is my calling and I will find a way to pursue it one way or another! What I really need to do is find that magic money tree somehow :/ But I will face whatever comes, when I get to it!

As I have said many times before, I owe so much to my mum. She is and as always remains my rock, my constant and my best friend. A phone call is all it takes to bring a smile to my face in even the most hardest of times. When things have got rough or hard, she has always been there on my shoulder and my greatest wish is that I can build the same love and friendship with my own daughters.

So now I look forward to the next year, completing my degree, deciding on a future and all the trials that may come with it.

Bring it on.