Hermit in the filing cabinet

It has come to the end of second year and what does that mean? Oh yeah, dreaded exam period, ARGH!

On that note I have received my million essays I have to write in lieu of exams and will now be hermitting myself away for the next two weeks.

Part of my fibro is the incredibly frustrating brain fog.

I like to describe it as like having everything you know in a room full of filing cabinets. Every fact, feeling and even individual words are contained¬†in different files within these cabinets. What fibro likes to do, on random occasions, is come into your little room of knowledge, pick a cabinet at whim and lock it. Just like that, the stuff you know you know is sealed out of sight and you just can’t seem to open it. Then another time it will open that back up again and go find another random cabinet to lock.

It is incredibly frustrating and as such, coupled with possible extreme fatigue or pain flares, I have a tendency to not exam well at the moment. So after a lot of paper work and meetings I was able to sit alternative assessments, of which my first try in January saw an instant improvement in performance.

Don’t get me wrong, these are in no way easier. I currently have around 11-12 essays to crack out in 13 days and the marking criteria is much more full on than in exams and I am expected to fully reference all my work.

So yeah, this is me at the moment, working hard and trying not to loose what little is left of my worn out mind.

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